Emotional Movies

What is it that happens to a women when she gives birth? Before I had my son I cried at a total of 4 movies.

Steel Magnolias
Beaches
Man on the Moon
Armagedon

Since having AJ I can't take movies that tug at your heart anymore. I'm sitting here watching Deep Impact. It's a movie that has two commets hurling themselves at the earth basically destroying all life. The first commet hits and sends a mega tsunami size tidal wave that wipes out the east. One of the characters and her father go to the beach and wait to die. Another character forces her daughter and infant son to flee for higher ground and they stay behind. The crew of astronauts that are trying to stop the commet have to say their teary good-byes to their families.

I'm sitting here an absolute mess because I love my son to death, but I don't know if I would have the courage to force him to flee or give him to someone else and wait for death to take me. It's kinda how I feel now. If he can't snap out of his autism and get to a point where he can support himself then one day I'm going to have to hand him over to for someone to take care of when it's my time to go.

I can't bare the thought.